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I don't think Tony and I have gone a day without talking since he went to Mexico once and had no cell reception. Other than that we haven't gone a day without speaking in maybe 3 or 4 years. He left me a message while I was in court. I saved it so I can listen to it if I start to get really sad. 

I feel a little lost. Like I don't know what to do. I know it sounds pathetic. Whatever, when your fiance goes to Europe to play a show 3 months before your wedding, without you, you can then tell me I am being a little bitch about it. :)

Next time I will go, I just couldn't deal with it right now. Too much to handle at home.

I am not devastated or totally depressed, just feel a bit lonely and bored.